Take this as you will, a sob story, a lie or even a cry for attention. I only share this here so that no one around me will know.
Today, March 27 2013, I went to the doctor’s office about my heart, I didn’t believe it when he told me that I had anywhere from a few days to months left to live. The cause, my heart has been under too much stress mostly cause by starting work at a young age, but recently causing me pain due to my mother’s accident leaving my family with fiscal problems forcing me to work 2-3 jobs.
I remember the day I was taken to the hospital, I didn’t want to go, I didn’t have the money to pay the medical bill even with insurance. But I couldn’t hide the pain on my face, it hurt even as I took a tiny breath so moving felt like my chest was being cut open by a hundred needles. I was in there for 24 hours with no clue to what happened or what caused it. Now 6 months later I’m on my way to my deathbed. There is more to my life but I don’t think you really want to read my bitching about how bad my life has been. There are those out there who have had a worst life then I.
So I love you all, the ones I’ve become friends with, the ones I haven’t spoken to, even the ones who hate me. You all have put up or ignore my bs but still following me, so I thank you all. I’ve met so many wonderful people from all across the world some talked for a few days others for months and few still talked to me to my death maybe not even knowing that I am dying. But all things come to an end. I apologize if deleting you from my multiple means of communication, I only did that so I wouldn’t be tempted to talk to you or even end up telling you. I’m sorry, I didn’t want to hurt you,
So if you are reading this then I am already dead. I always thought it would be interesting to leave a queue going until the last post is a death note. I mean in a way I was still showing you what I liked even to the end.
I’ve said this before but again, Love everyone and help anyone. Everyone needs love and will need help sooner or later. If you can do that for me I will rest easy. This is the end huh? Please don’t cry, there is nothing you can do nor anyone really, lets just say my heart was too large and pumped too long. I wish you all the best with your life and may you experience more love and happiness then sorrow and pain.
this is fucking terrifying
this is awful
what the actual